dont you feel like an angel when someone you dont want is kissing you... 

some pics i like for no reason 

sometimes kinda like that... 

have more time to rant:))

ok, i am here again.
let me tell you about my friends now,
i have many friends, some are friends from eastern european countries who dont know that i am gay, and some are friends from around here, and we always try to have good time.
and there are some friends who still try to have sex with me.
and there are friends i had sex once upon a time and we stayed friends:))
and there IS friend I would like to have sex with (or let's say i have crash on), but who is not available:) and whose name should stay in secret:)
i met so many new people when i just moved to bay area, but this year i havent met that many new people for some reason, i guess i am taking a break...
anyways, lately i have been hanging with my friend D, and we have so much fun, i didnt think that we would be good friends, because of our age difference, cause I am 27 and he is 21, so i thought he would immature and etc, but hey he is more mature than me, hehehe:) he makes me feel immature, so embarassing:)
anyway, we go to the city, to castro to shop or just to hang around, and to check out all those cutie walk around, but i dont know if it is a good thing that me and D have different taste in men, maybe it is for better and we wont fight over man:))
but more often we hang around TURF club, which is kinda local for both of us (since D isnt 21 yet and he cant go to clubs for "grown ups" in the city).
anyway that place is mostly for people who doesnt want to drive all the way to the city or for people who has no ID, or people who end up there without realizing that it might be pretty boring there. so anyway, everytime we go there with D we meet some of our friends there, and some of them are pretty funny, and some pretty weird:))))) and everytime something different happens...
like one night we went there and D started to make out with one very fem guy right on the dance floor, and whom we saw couple weeks later cruising in the parking lot behind that bar, ha ha ha, that was kinda funny and sad, cause i think that guy could do better.
or like last night when we went out after bar was closed and we were standing outside talking, one weird blond guy came to me and just tried to make out with me, which was very disgusting and nasty, cause he was drunk and smelled like popcorn and smoke. ewww, and had very scruffy arms:)) probably he shaves them. BTW he told me that he is a drag queen, hehe, for some reason drag queens like me, which is very weird, though my friend told me that because i have very exotic look, i hope that's it, cause i dont want them to like for being fem or something, which i am not!
oh, i need to run right now, laters:)

here we go

Hi people,
i dont know you and you dont know me ... yet.
let me intriduce myself first, I am let's say Castro, i moved here from one of the countries of eastern europe like more than 5 years ago, and I loved here I mean to tell you:)
I think the USA is the best country in the world, and offers great opportunities:)
Thank God for that!
Anyway I lived in OH, then moved to WI, then moved to CA, and immidiately felt the difference in climate:)) in CA!
I am from well educated family, my both parents are professionals, and i have sisters, and I am the only son.
by the way, have i mentioned that i am descreet homosexual man?:)
yes, i am indeed.
i am not out yet at all, and i dont even know if i can come out, i am too chicken for that:)
though sometimes i wish i could talk to my family about my personal life, whom i am dating and what issues i am having, but i guess i cant do it now...
which is ok, I am used to be alone anyway... when you move to different country and dont have family and when you move a lot, you kinda get used to be alone, to spend holidays by yourself sometimes or lets say most of the time...
like today is Mother's Day, and i see all those people buying flowers, cards and gifts for their mothers and it made me feel little bit lonely and little bit ungrateful to my mom, cause i didnt call her yet...
Wow, i really like this blog thing, as if you can talk and at the same time no one interupts you:))
and you can keep talking about different subjects without being worried if the listener is actually following you, hehe:))
anyway, since i moved to CA i made more friends than ever, i guess because i am more open about my sexuality and not scared to meet new people.
well, it is hard not to be more open if you live in SF bay area:)) lot of gays here:))
i need to go now, laters:))